In some way, I had it difficult growing up. I had to raise myself essentially because my mom used to work 60 plus hours in the home-loan industry. But in other ways, I was protected by the outside world growing up. In part, it was thanks to my mother working such long hours that I lived in the pleasant confines of a beautiful house separated from other people.
Luckily for me, though, I was always a curious child.
In these days of uncertainty in the world, there is one certainty left for me.
I can see the hard work in front of me, and I don’t tremble at the thought of it. I’ve never been one to shy away from a challenge, but now, I feel even more reckless and fearless. Ironically, I wonder if I’m at least scared of what’s happening to me personally.
I’ve lost all sense of fear, it seems. For the last four weeks, I’ve gone through some strange transformation where I simply don’t care if I fail or not.
I don’t care what others think of me, how I might face an obstacle or even my own thoughts on life. I’ve begun to see both the beauty and horrors in life, and I don’t want this experience to end. Yet, I also feel a sense of my mortality.
I know that might seem strange, but I never thought much of my life and the many possible ways I could take it when I was younger.
Now, I feel ready to take on the world. I’m prepared to take my life into my own hands, ready to become responsible for my very livelihood in ways I never thought of before.
So at a relatively young age, I was always learning all that I could from books, whether they were fiction, non-fiction, or any other genre. As a result, I’ve always connected with people, even those who came from incredibly different backgrounds compared to me.
That’s not to say I was naïve of the cruelty that some people in the world harbor inside of themselves for reasonable reasons. No, it was more a willing ignorance I allowed myself to live in from my own observational understanding of life’s many hardships and quarrels.
There are so many things I wish I could share in this one single post, but I must go now. Time is short these days, but surprisingly enough, I don’t much mind it.
I’ll leave you all with this one simple thought: in the world, gravity keeps us down. But don’t ever let life get you down.
Forever in Your Debt,
Leon R.M. Auguste